Leaving

I've tried to refresh back my memory, after all this years that I've spent here. And suddenly one question that suddenly pop-upped in my mind.

"What've you learned?"

Pagi pagi datang baca email sekejap, lepas itu turun sarapan sekejap, lepas itu baca email dan jalan jalan sekejap dapatkan information, going for a meeting or discussion and then boom. Lunch. and then sambung buat kerja biasa balik sampai ke petang and then. Eh dah 5.30 petang. Dah balik.

Terbiasa dengan normal routine, still, after all that I've been through, still a lot things yang gua tak dapat jawab menjelang hari demi hari sebelum kontrak gua habis. Dan tiap tiap hari gua rasa gua bangang, apa benda entah benda simple pun tak boleh jawab, tak boleh buat, mungkin I've high expectations to myself thats why whenever I seeing myself in the middle of failure, I cannot accept that.

Why. Kenapa masa belajar dahulu, masa gua dapat keputusan rendah, gua masih boleh rasa selesa dan boleh buat macam biasa. Kenapa bila umi dan abah bercakap dengan gua pasal prestasi sekolah rendah yang di banggakan dahulu itu sudah tidak berulang pada zaman universiti, dan kenapa bila persoalan itu datang gua cuma mengambil remeh.

Mungkin, gua bukan dari sini.

"Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next..."